maybee

oh my

2006-11-13T09:21:00.000+08:00

oh my, realised that i havent posted anything here for quite a while.

ok, i have my last paper this weds, and im just aiming to get past it as soon as possible, cos its just plain boring. micro is like the most boring course im taking this semester, and its just a pain in the ass to study it. a lot of people in college have gone off and im still stuck here studying this piece of shit.

so after the exams, im gonna go shopping, buy krispy kreme and then pack my stuff and fly off to brisbane!

cant believe it, it has been almost 4 months since i've been here. time passes so fast, i almost finished one semester. 5 more to go!!

floriade

2006-10-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

ok i finally went to floriade this weekend. took a lot of pictures. ive become such a camera whore, shoot me. so im just uploading some, maybe just 3 pictures for people to see the beautiful tulips, and me.

spring

2006-09-23T09:59:00.000+08:00

spring is beautiful here, all the flowers are in bloom. its nice to be able to experience the 4 seasons! im going to floriade today, the flower exhibition which displays a million blooming flowers.

wish you were here

2006-09-19T14:28:00.000+08:00

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.

okay
i went back to singapore for two weeks. just came back to canberra, and its pretty sad to leave everyone again.

my dad had a car accident. some freaking asshole was speeding and knocked him over.

so i went back to see him, take care of him and just to have a piece of mind. he's okay right now, but everything doesnt really hit me, that i could have lost him. some one up there is always helping him and pulling through. its lucky that he didnt die or get something worse than a whole lot of cuts and bruises and a double fracture.

sometimes i think im pretty lucky that i wasn't in singapore when it happened, cause i dont think im strong enough to handle the whole situation. i always had the mentality that my parents were bloody immortal. and suddenly it hits u in the face that he is injured. even so, you wouldnt think that it was that bad. got a shock when i went back and saw the pictures of him on the fifth day and it was pretty bad, being on morphine, not being able to eat and drink properly, i think my dad has come a long way to being in the recovering stage he is in now, and still have a long way to go before he is able to function properly.

i didnt even have the strength to read my mum's diary of what happened. so im quite clueless about what happened. only know the outline of everything. my mum's pretty strong to have gone through everything by herself and not tell my sis and i about it, to share this burden with her when she was most lost and alone.

i am thankful, and appreciate everything i have. i've learnt to never underestimate the vulnerability of life.

i miss my family.

other side of the world

2006-08-31T11:40:00.000+08:00

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world
to me

melbourne

2006-08-18T08:35:00.000+08:00

hmm i have slightly more than one week till my mid semester exams. realised that i've been slacking a wee bit too much. and its like 2 weeks till my september holidays. and already, we've started planning what to do with it. its between going to sydney or melbourne. at this moment, its swinging very much to melbourne which is like a 7.5 hr drive. my parents will kill me. well thats the thing i like about australia. its huge. we can just pick up and leave canberra as and when we want to, and go to some other state. plus, mummy and daddy dearest are not here. haha.. my dad almost killed me when i just went to sydney for the weekend. see, ngiam, this is another reason you should come here, then you wont have to go to bangkok just to get away. no need to bring passport, just get into the car and drive off. but then again, you dont have your friggin license. tsk tsk. aiyo me too. but i like to think of it as other people chauffering me around. so the september hols sound interesting right? something to look forward to!

reina where have you died to?

so by the time i finish my course here, i would like to say that i've been around australia! how cool is that? geri you're welcome to come here for a nice holiday, just dont come to canberra, its bloody boring!

so my dear friends, come visit me when you can, otherwise i'll see all of you after dec 15, after spending a month in brisbane, summertime at the surfers' paradise, and good old gold coast!

one month

2006-08-13T11:34:00.000+08:00

how fast time passes.

its been one month since i came canberra. 2 days ago, i finally felt sad. it was the first time since i came here that i really missed my friends. i miss everything about everybody, but mainly the fact that i can talk about anything with them without being afraid of any judgement coming from them. the comfortablility with them, that we accept each other for what we are, and know each other well enough. and it only comes after being friends with someone for a long period of time.

oh well, i hope to see everyone back in mid december!

jenson

2006-08-07T09:24:00.000+08:00

jenson button has finally gotten his first win in the f1! was a stunning race, and a well deserved win. after supporting him and honda for 2 years, they've finally produced a win. i had almost given up hope on him and f1, but luckily i watched it last night and it turned out to be one of those great races, full of excitment, especially with the wet weather! yay!

good day

2006-08-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a good day. the weather was perfect. it was the first the i could walk out in a tank top and a t shirt without feeling cold. so i woke up to go for the mamak day, which was an eating event organised by the malaysian society. paid five bucks for free flow of friend bee hoon, curry chicken, prata, and teh. tasted quite ok. ate picnic style - sitting down on the grass and chit chatting. basked in the good weather.

later went to woden for shopping. my friend dave, who bought a car, drove us over there. the dude took a wrong turn and took us on a scenic tour of canberra. luckily the weather was really nice, so we enjoyed the view on our way there. saw people having picnics by the lake, and even some couple just parking their cars by the side of the road, in the middle of nowhere and just lying on the grass sun tanning. weird.

so we finally got to woden and started shopping. ended our shopping adventure with some nice donuts at krispy kreme. the very famous krispy kreme thats only available in nsw (sydney) and my very ulu town canberra. they dont even have it in brisbane. yes! we bought like 2 dozens of it and brought it back. its that nice.

so thats my good day!

good day to u!

sydney

2006-07-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

ok im back from sydney, too a 1 1/2 day trip there.

time passed too fast that all i can remember was eating too much, window shopping and the very nice sydney opera house. ate lots of pancakes at pancakes on the rocks, ate korean food and the seafood platter at sydney fish market, which included lots seafood, fresh oysters and sashimi. drool. back eating johns food again.

ok here's the pic finally.

opera house

2006-07-28T08:09:00.000+08:00

im going to sydney for the weekend, bye bye!

ps: dont be jealous!

wake up

2006-07-24T09:09:00.000+08:00

i cant believe tambunan really cut her hair. tambunan u suck! no wonder u didnt go out during the weekend.

and just to clarify, i dont party every night. i watch movies every night. i just went to check out the people!

hello canberra!

2006-07-22T08:21:00.000+08:00

ok this is my messy. excuse the messiness!

ok canberra is boring when the sun sets, and cold, and everyone drinks beer. not going to elaborate much because i slept at 4am last night after going on the pub crawl, which is pub hopping with my crazy john's people. all the ang mohs are really heong, party, drink drink and drink more, and dance some more, and end up getting drunk, molested (for the girls) and providing me with a very entertaining show for 6 hours!

i didnt get drunk, i went for the free show, and a good time.

amazing what alcohol makes one do.

there was this crazy ang moh girl called diana, who was wearing a stick on bra, who kept grabbing both breasts and saying her stick on bra keeps falling off, and lowering her top, to check it out. and kept dancing and shouting SINGAPORE!

my dear spanish friend made out with two girls, and doesnt know how each one looks like, and got a huge shock when i laughed and told him that one was a whale. huge. not that im mean, but for the past few days prior to last night, he kept calling fat girls titanic, and singing my heart will go on whenever one passed by. not good dude. fella cant resist any girl that comes his way.

ok so overall, that was the most entertaining and fun day of my one plus week in canberra.

coldplay

2006-07-11T00:41:00.000+08:00

just went for the concert so im uploading some stuff that was taken from my camera.

this is the scientist, quality's a bit shitty, but who cares, haha, promised to upload it for inami!

song's a bit too sad, now that im leaving.
goodbye my friends, thank you for everything!

sia

2006-07-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

i cant get a flight out of singapore?!
so everyone's chionging out of singapore.
madness!

and im writing this on my new mac, which has windows too, and is bloody irritating. couldnt get it to start up on mac, took me like 30mins to configure it. oh well, its working fine now, thank god.

so everything is all set. i have my mac all set up, loaded all my songs, bought like 2 long sleave shirts, stole my luggage bag from my sis, i even threw some stuff in my huge luggage.

and i dont have a flight out of singapore?!

hah

2006-06-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

screw you!
i got into anu, uq and sydney u!

the saddest week of my life

2006-06-07T18:38:00.000+08:00

i got rejected. i got rejected by NUS, NTU and SMU. All Three. if you think you were sad because you didnt get what you wanted, this takes sadness to another level. add depressed to that too. to work your ass off for the past two years of your life and get nothing but three stinking rejection letters, i think im entitled to be depressed. to feel the need to cry every single minute.

this is where my life stops. this is where i lose all faith.

it's funny, how you can go to a catholic school for six years, praying everyday, believing that there is actually a God out there, and that no mattter what, everything would be okay.

i'm not okay. im far worse than okay. i'm-lostallfaith-not okay.

it's so funny how life takes you on one hell of a spin just to let you fall. to be branded that loser. the person who didnt make it.

i didnt make it.

that was one week ago.

and it felt like the longest week of my life. seriously.

how do you know when the sadness ends? when do you know you're not depressed? how do you not equate failure with death? how do you stop this mourning? how do you just make it stop?

some say time will heal the pain. maybe one day i will be okay. i guess.

i guess the greatest thing that resulted from my failure is my friends. the people who are there to catch my fall. friends who tell me its okay, to not be sad, who give me strength, to give me hope. hope to move on to something else. something else which is maybe my fate. and friends who just pray.

even though i lost everything in three pieces of paper, i think i gained something in retrospect. i gained a new respect for my parents, and appreciation for my friends who were the for me when i needed them the most.

i guess im a little over that sadness, and am more excited about my life. i guess i am thankful.

things to do

2006-04-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

just in case u didnt know, i quit my job!

so these are the things i promise to accomplish before getting into a uni:

take up some music course. torn between drums and jazz piano. i will sign up soon.
promise to clean the house more often.
do a scrapbook of photos.
make more jewellery.
go crazy and enjoy the hols!

gone

2006-02-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

and then she's gone.

didnt wanna go to the airport to send her off cos i was afraid that i'd be too sad and cry hysterically. so i chose to do stay at home and sleep. when in pain, just go to sleep.

i think she was upset that i didnt go. so upset that she didnt even say goodbye. maybe its better this way. much better than the big hoo ha. but i already miss her so much even though she hasnt even landed in aus. and i cant help but tear up every single time i think of her.

i guess its better you dont see me this way.

one year. counting down the days.

angel

2005-12-02T11:31:00.000+08:00

spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seep from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreakage
from your silent reverie
you're in the arms of an angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
everywhere you turn
the're vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keep on twisting
keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escape on last time
its easier to believe
in this sweet madness
oh glorious sadness brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreakage
from your silent reverie
you're in the arms of an angel
may you find some comfort here

many people love this song. hear it often on various singing comptetions on tv. dont think many of them truely understand the meaning behind this song.

found out yesterday that my aunt's grandson died. shockingly sad. jumped off the 12th story. amazing how one's weaknesses can give them so much strength to do it.

rip

beginning

2005-12-01T12:47:00.000+08:00

the end is a new beginning.

i guess the graduation night marked the end of the school year, the end of the mad rush that slowly eases into these idle days.

the grad night was ok. boring dinner, a blur of people who look the same, average food, time that passed too fast.

i tried to think of anything significant about the night, but only could remember people drinking too much and end up acting really weirdly, if not foolishly. it's almost funny. i can never understand the need to drink excessively on a special occasion because, when u wake up the next day, the day before becomes a haze, and all you have left to commemorate is an aching head.

maybe we talked a lot, the gossip, happenings, and could-have-beens. talked about the past year, retold stories, not sleeping.

maybe its disappointing that on this one night, i didn't let loose. didn't drink too much or rather, at all. didn't do anything stupid, and only got a headache for not sleeping.

sadly, all i that i can hold on to for this one night, is not fun, but funny memories.

so i think i need a change.

money

2005-11-23T11:19:00.000+08:00

post-exam euphoria has had a horrible spell on me.

the very day the exams end, i go out and spend $33 on a cd. A cd.

the very next day the exams end, i go out and spend $155 on shoes.

reminds me of the pink floyd song, money.
money, get away
get a good job with more pay and you're ok.

yes, i so need a job, one with high pay. and the slackest one too. need to buy a laptop.

the good thing about today is sis is finally coming back, and we get to eat loads of seafood at some random seafood joint! my favourite!

mood = doom

2005-11-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

i hate moody people.

the constant moody people whose mood change every single time the sun rises and sets. the ones who would treat you nicely one moment when they feel like it, and treat you like shit the next. the ones who think the whole world owes him a living. the one who thinks he is king.

firstly, i am not a freaking servant that has to sit and wait on you, and be subjected to your behavior. just because you think the world is against you doesn't mean you have to take it out on me!

secondly, i don't think that the world owes you a living, especially not your family. i don't think you deserve to be bribed with an ipod just to make you study hard and treat others better. i don't think you have to be mothered 24/7 just to make sure you are focused and actually do study. you are freaking old enough. you should know better by now the difference between right and wrong, and what are your priorities. if you think that people are smothering you, it's because you act like a bloody two year-old who doesn't seem to know how to take care of himself!

stop blaming the entire universe. its not us, its you!

i don't think anyone deserves being treated this way. wake up and freaking grow up!

and yes, its my brother.

steamboat

2005-10-31T10:40:00.000+08:00

sister is coming back on the 23rd of nov. woo hoo!

well, my family is not going to brisbane due to some money problems, no money no go. a holiday in brisbane will probably cost us like $5000, which is pretty expensive given the fact that my dad's not going getting any bonus this year. pretty rough year on the wallet with super duper huge expenses.

so, we're going to malaysia as a family with a huge load of pple, packed in a bus to bond! i think its fine, at least we get to go somewhere, anything is better than nothing. if i work hard and earn enough money, i can still go to hong kong disneyland!

anyway, i think the lit people's last paper is on the 23rd and there was supposed to be some events going on at joy's house. too bad, dont think i can make it now. i want to go to the airport to fetch my sister, give her a good hug, and have steamboat for dinner as a family. finally. after many many many months.

street map

2005-10-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

i know its a little late but..

graduated from cj officially on thurs. after two years of torture, pain, blood sweat and tears, i'm finally one step from leaving horrible jc. well, that one step is of course is the As.

somehow there's this expectation to reflect upon the past two years. think i'll do it next time when im in a more reflective mood, and when all these nonsense stuff called the A levels are finally over. then i'll have some closure. and move on to another path.

i need a street map.

one

2005-10-07T17:33:00.000+08:00

at this moment,
there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.

some are running scared,
some are coming home.
some tell lies to make it through the day,
others are just not facing the truth.
some are evil men, at war with good,
some are good, strugling with evil.

six billion people, in the world,
six billion souls.
and sometimes all you need is one.

~one tree hill

shucks

2005-09-30T18:22:00.000+08:00

this sucks, i tried to change the template thingy and i failed, now this whole thing looks really bad. its not align.

help.

tv-addict

2005-09-30T17:54:00.000+08:00

i confess, im an addict!

the new shows start to come in after a long summer break, and here i am, finding myself looking forward to another weekly dose of shows, ranging from desperate housewives to gilmore girls. every. single. week. without fail.

this pill to take away the stress is causing me more harm than i bargained for. its like ecstacy, you know its not good for you but you just have to take it. maybe its the cause of my lack of concentration to sit down to study lately, i really dont know. all i know is every wednesday i'm sitting in front of the television watching one show after another, then i go to sleep. wasting precious study time.

i need a restraining order.

tie me to the study table.

and i watched corpse bride today.

records

2005-09-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

bought two albums on friday. old ones, if u consider it old, but good nonetheless. i realised that old albums are really really good, and new ones just keep disappointing me time and time again, wasting my time and money.

anyways, the albums that i bought are alanis morisette's jagged little pill, and sarah mclachlan's mirrorball.

i have to say, that both albums are fantastic. and i only buy stuff which are worth my money these days. i guess i've always been one who pays more attention to the lyrics, thats why. both albums are really different, the alanis one being so sarcastic, which actually turns out to be pretty funny especially in songs where she totally slams her ex. haha.. clever lyrics. on the other hand, the sarah mclachlan one is a live album of her tour, with her best songs sung live. a much more subtle and mellow album. soothing.. have to say that she's a great songwriter whose lyrics are really good. now she makes me want to buy more of her albums which are studio recorded. hmm, and the song sheet to play it on the piano and guitar. not that the live ones are not good, it actually sounds more real than studio albums, which is good, plus the guitars sound better.

geri pls return me my cd asap!

so now, i have a wish list!

sarah mclachlan's surfacing and solace albums = $28
sarah mclachlan's surfacing song book = $35 approx
nirvana's nevermind album = $20
dashboard confessional's places you have come to fear the most and swiss army romance albums = $exhorbitant amount from rip off hmv

just realised that they are all music stuff and they cost so much. guess i'll have to work really hard after A's.

forgiven

2005-09-22T11:31:00.000+08:00

listening to the alanis' album now, and the song im listening now is forgiven.

so it shall be the title.

prelims just ended yesterday.

shit.

i think i screwed up really badly, dont think i'll do well, cause deep down inside i know i didnt study as hard as i really ought to. i didnt even put in my best to prepare for it. maybe it's fate. something's telling me that i need to fall down really hard for the panic and desperation to sink into my impenetrable brain. we all have our desperate moments, when will that moment come?

i should really prepare myself for the day my results come out, to feel that same sadness and maybe a little regret for not doing well. forgive me. at this moment, i really need something to cling to, something called hope. hope i can find the frame of mind to study hard for the next six weeks in order to do really well.

i have been running so hard for the past two years, i dont want to fall down at the last 100 metres. wonder if i'll ever forgive myself if i fall. dont think i'll ever.

on a lighter note, went out for lunch with sk, sewei, bt, inami, reina, ngiam and joe yesterday. joe the man whom i haven seen in ages! poor man is working at D & G as a sales assistant, wearing the skinny white tee, looking as gay as ever. he needs a suntan! good to meet up with some old friends, miss all those crazy moments.

after lunch we went aimless-walking, no activities to cater to so many people. after walking in kino for endless minutes, the girls decided to abandon the guys to go shopping. feel quite bad to ditch the guys, but somehow they never understand the beauty of shopping. all the window shopping and looking at clothes.

they. dont. get. it.

so too bad, i dont care, walked for many hours and went home at 6 plus. day well spent, good exercise walking. too bad i didnt get to spend any money. wasted.

bar honda

2005-09-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

courtesy of www.f1.com

jenson button has finally gotten a podium finish. congrats dude. check out the wonderful picture of schumacher talking to sato after they crashed, poor angry schumie, hopes gone with the crash! think he smacked sato's head.. hmm.. good job sato! woo hoo!

haha..

hao lian

2005-09-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

this fat ass went for a run with daddy on saturday.

prelims

2005-09-09T13:53:00.000+08:00

prelims are next week, and they coincide with the return of the wonderful gilmore girls season 6. gilmore girls! finally!
good luck to me, the busy person who's studying right this moment! haha..

part-time maid

2005-09-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

yes i am the part-time maid. free-of-charge part-time maid.

woke up today with the main aim of doing some house work at home. i just could not stand the horrible state of the house. the ants were slowly crawlling around in a nice straight line day after day in the toilet. after days of scrubbing the floor with soap and water i figured they would never ever go away, so i took the one last resort, the merciless method of killing them - spraying them with insecticide. swift and fast. almost like the nazis, i killed them with chemicals. poor ants, poor me. hope they dont court their own deaths by coming back tmr, otherwise i'll have to hunt down their nest and kill the whole entire family. STOP COMING INTO MY TOILET YOU PERVERTED ANTS!

following, an even worse nightmare. the nightmare of teacher's day. the revenge of the teachers for being the worst student, this curse - the horrible dead corpse of the lizard (which was probably left dead for 092384923475 months). oh my God, the stench of this lizard was imberable. even worse than dead fish. you would never imagine how so much smell could come out from that tiny body, and how long we have been using the computer with the lizard's 'grave' at our feet. anyway this maid cleared it up with brother and threw it into the big black bin. good luck to the guy who is going to clear it tomorrow! may God really bless his nose.

oh i did sweep the floor and mop it twice to make sure my house is sparkling clean. two hours of solid work. a bloody good work out i must say. a good sweat after one month of not excercising! good job mate!

work

2005-08-27T11:21:00.000+08:00

two more weeks to prelims. i need to study really hard in order to get into a local university. how now brown cow?

throughout this course of life, people often wonder why they study so hard, their reason behind this motivation, especially in singapore where the pressure is enormous. why am i studying so hard for?

do we have our lives mapped out for us, this path of getting through primary school, secondary, pre-university, then a degree? we are often pushed in this direction, with the promise of success and a happy life through endless years of endeavour. are our minds already made up for us? are we swimming in a pool of delusion? why are we working so hard for? are we truely happy?

in this juncture, it is important to know what you really want, work for it, then take that plunge. dont float around in mid air, go with the wind and pray that it will lead you to a safe direction.

burst this bubble, i think i'm still floating.

the scientist

2005-08-20T17:00:00.000+08:00

nobody said it was easy,
it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy,
no-one ever said it would be this hard
oh take me back to the start

~coldplay, the scientist

missing you everyday.

pac

2005-08-20T16:41:00.000+08:00

went for guitar/pac practice today, dont know why.

i'll be performing at the bloody pac this friday and saturday for the opening of the performing arts centre which finally finished building. i have to say, whoever who's been into the sji's centre, u'll see a very good resemblance, besides the obvious difference in colour. its quite sad, everything just looks the same. cant they have some creativity, innovation and all of those shit to build something that looks nice more special. plus, what a lousy time to open the pac, right before prelims where everyone's mind is on the As, they have to spring up this performance to 'showcase the talents'. oh well, nvm, what's done is done. total waste of time.

oh well, tickets go on sale on monday, for a measly 2 dollars. support the people performing but dont expect too much from them, my bet is it will suck, too little time to practice anything.

shit

2005-08-16T18:38:00.000+08:00

i'm going to boycott the horrible western stall forever.

thanks to sk, i ate the food there before going for narindar's history lecture. during the lecture, while listening to narindar's drone about the collapse of soviet communism, i had the worst sharp pain in my stomach. it was like ten thousand sirens screaming "go to the toilet, shit wants to come out desperately", every few minutes. after 20mins, the pain got too much to bear, so i finally went to the toilet to shit it all out. phew..

unfortunately, the worst was not over. on the way home, It came back- the shit monster.

i had to rush to the toilet to finish off all the remains of my western best food. after some very quick plops, i was done. i killed the shit monster. buried him in the sewage system. some many many feet deep down in the sewage system, ready to be transported to the new water plant for some bottled water. what a way to end the school day!

never eat from the western stall at 3.30pm.

stressed

2005-08-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

had some bad chest pain and difficulty breathing yesterday, so i went to see the doc to find out why, and to get some medication.

he says im probably stressed. hmm..

good news is i got an mc, and some really good medicine that made me sleep like a baby till like 10am this morning. its some medicine to make me relax. so here i am relaxing at home instead of going to school.. haha.. bad news: i still have 2 hist essays to complete, so how am i supposed to relax??!! school sucks, burn the school down. haha..

anyways, i managed to finish the 6th harry potter book! yay! not as thick as atlas shrugged but nevertheless, still really long. the thing abt this book is its super draggy with too much development and so little action. looks like jk rowling is losing her touch, the story wasnt even exciting at all.

disappointed.

another sad thing is i think we're not gonna get a maid anymore. my horrible maid who's supposed to come screwed us upside down, made empty promises, so now we're maidless. superwoman mummy wants to do it herself. cook, clean, mop, iron, wash clothes, all by herself, (with the exploitation of us, kids). what rubbish. have too much hw and exams coming up still need to be part-time maid. i demand a raise in allowance.

reina im sorry for laughing at u for being the maid, i take back everything i said. im going to be a maid too! one two three four, hi five! :(

singapore's day

2005-08-09T17:51:00.000+08:00

the national day songs are getting worse and worse every year.

Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies

can the lyrics go any worse than this? our dreams we'll all achieve? i mean who are they trying to con? the only people who actually believe it are probably primary 1 kids and taufik fans.

quite glad the day has finally arrived, now they will stop the incessant playing of the song over the radio, it gives me a bloody headache listening to it :(

happy national day everyone, lets all soar and reach for the skies! (try taking an aeroplane!)

the oompa-loompas

2005-08-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

watched charlie and the chocolate factory yesterday with reina after econs mock. since it was a friday evening, we didnt get good seats. actually we had really bad seats, the wonderful front row seats where u have the privilege of craining your neck to look at the gigantic screen. we had the best view of charlie, right smack in the middle in front!

anyways, the show was so funny! the best part was the oompa-loompas who sang all the songs and danced along to it everytime one of the naughty kids do something bad and get into trouble! (oompa-loompas are identical-looking and really tiny. they're the workers in the factory.) credit goes to danny elfman who composed all the music and tim burton who directed it! thanks for the good laugh!

go watched the show, read the book, and check out the webbie for cool stuff!

http://chocolatefactorymovie.warnerbros.com/

its not a sin to be happy

2005-08-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

wing: Something Reina said sometime back has made me think. People only blog when they are upset or bored. They almost never blog when they are happy.

ive decided to write about something that im happy about- the aftermath of ptm.

after the very short ptm, my dad said this, "we're proud of you."

its the first time he has every said anything like that, and it makes me really really happy to know that he really means it. nothing brings you more joy than to know that all that you've worked for over the past month is recognised by the ones whom you love most. they acknowledged that i've done my best.

its not as if im being boastful or anything, but im happy because a little of my effort has paid off. i've finally passed my midyears! every single subject, even gp and history! its a far cry from my secondary years where i didnt give a hoot about studying and still had this crazy notion that i would do miraculously well for the o levels.

i didnt.

in it lies a huge amount of regret. its the worst feeling in the world, and i dont want to ever feel it again.

thus, im happy that i've finally worked hard. hours of sitting down to study in the library, sometimes freezing there, some effort has paid off. thanks wing, reina and geri who studied with me during the june hols!

tgif

2005-07-29T16:11:00.000+08:00

tgif-not. im stuck at home with nothing to do except to secretly use the computer. on the sly.

kay-tuitionteacher-yong, is sick and he says he cant come till at night, terribly ambiguous, want to come come, dont want to come dont come! yes, no, dont know, so now im just anticipating. feel cheated into come home so early on a friday, all for nothing.. even mommy is in orchard road?!

kay yong, why do u have to do this to me?

my computer

2005-07-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

what are the main purposes of a computer? to play games, to chat online/communication? work?

for me it is the search for information and to do some group work. occationally when im free i'll go online to chat with friends and now my sis. unfortunately, my dear o brother is "addicted to computer games". (he claims he's not). unless u call waking up at 2am to play games for endless hours not, then maybe he's right. the addiction is alright, thousands of teenagers in singapore are addicted computer games, but daddy still takes the power cable away. he wants to do something to help him. he wants to be fair.

so why take it out on me? i am not an addict.

innocent party?

the huge question is is this the right method or doing things, and does it serve its purpose in the first place. what are the consequences of his actions, and is it worth it?

nope.

people always leave

2005-07-24T17:38:00.000+08:00

the land is green and so inviting,
you take that step to the other side,
leaving the past behind.

in the excitment of today,
too caught up in the moment,
the rest is long forgotten.

leave the world to escape the pain -
how dare you leave friends and family
to pick up the pieces?

self-centredness, this arrogance,
the assumption of your divinity
to play God.

maybe if men were a little more loyal
and a little less selfish,
the world will be a better place.

sunday

2005-07-24T16:40:00.000+08:00

sunday is family day.

went out today for breakfast with all the old pple. none of my cousins or even my brother went. all the horrible pangsehers, shame on u! anyways, off we went to go the temple after breakfast to pray. woah, there were ten thousand people there, people mountain people sea, terrible! to make matters worse, it was raining so heavily, small little mummy and me scrambling under the umbrella for shelter against the strong wind and rain. it must be the "showers of blessing" people often talk about.

we were blessed.

after that, off we went to another temple to pray to another god, and then to whampoa for lunch. had chicken rice for lunch. quite a boring, oldies-only, day actually.

oh well, there's a paper 3 test tmr and i havent studied yet. good luck to me, may all the praying and showers help!

the sisterhood of the travelling pants

2005-07-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

i just finished watching the show, so let me tell u a little more about it! the sisterhood is about 4 teenage girls finding a pair of jeans, and how it changed their lives. overall, the show is good for a summer teen movie, it has a story to tell and lets us reflect about how our lives can change for the better, if we actually let ourselves. confront your fears, dont be afraid to make a change, maybe u will see some positive results!

go watch the show, if it ever comes to singapore, if not find a way, by hook or by crook!

charlie and the chocolate factory

2005-07-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

willy wonker, willy wonker, everybody give a cheer!
charlie and the chocolate factory, coming to you on 4th august 2005!

u dont know what u've got till its gone

2005-07-20T17:49:00.000+08:00

many may wonder why i have this blog.

i needed to write something so that my sis can see this to know something about my life; to understand. seventeen said to share your thoughts and photos in an online journal, so maybe this will help.

the fact is, im afraid. from a happy family of 5, mine is reduced to a little 3. my mummy, my brother and me. lau pa travels a lot to earn the money so he's not here half the time.

i know u have to go, i understand, im just sad cos i know it wont be the same again.