gone

and then she's gone.

didnt wanna go to the airport to send her off cos i was afraid that i'd be too sad and cry hysterically. so i chose to do stay at home and sleep. when in pain, just go to sleep.

i think she was upset that i didnt go. so upset that she didnt even say goodbye. maybe its better this way. much better than the big hoo ha. but i already miss her so much even though she hasnt even landed in aus. and i cant help but tear up every single time i think of her.

i guess its better you dont see me this way.

one year. counting down the days.