wish you were here

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.


okay
i went back to singapore for two weeks. just came back to canberra, and its pretty sad to leave everyone again.

my dad had a car accident. some freaking asshole was speeding and knocked him over.

so i went back to see him, take care of him and just to have a piece of mind. he's okay right now, but everything doesnt really hit me, that i could have lost him. some one up there is always helping him and pulling through. its lucky that he didnt die or get something worse than a whole lot of cuts and bruises and a double fracture.

sometimes i think im pretty lucky that i wasn't in singapore when it happened, cause i dont think im strong enough to handle the whole situation. i always had the mentality that my parents were bloody immortal. and suddenly it hits u in the face that he is injured. even so, you wouldnt think that it was that bad. got a shock when i went back and saw the pictures of him on the fifth day and it was pretty bad, being on morphine, not being able to eat and drink properly, i think my dad has come a long way to being in the recovering stage he is in now, and still have a long way to go before he is able to function properly.

i didnt even have the strength to read my mum's diary of what happened. so im quite clueless about what happened. only know the outline of everything. my mum's pretty strong to have gone through everything by herself and not tell my sis and i about it, to share this burden with her when she was most lost and alone.

i am thankful, and appreciate everything i have. i've learnt to never underestimate the vulnerability of life.

i miss my family.