its not a sin to be happy

wing: Something Reina said sometime back has made me think. People only blog when they are upset or bored. They almost never blog when they are happy.

ive decided to write about something that im happy about- the aftermath of ptm.

after the very short ptm, my dad said this, "we're proud of you."

its the first time he has every said anything like that, and it makes me really really happy to know that he really means it. nothing brings you more joy than to know that all that you've worked for over the past month is recognised by the ones whom you love most. they acknowledged that i've done my best.

its not as if im being boastful or anything, but im happy because a little of my effort has paid off. i've finally passed my midyears! every single subject, even gp and history! its a far cry from my secondary years where i didnt give a hoot about studying and still had this crazy notion that i would do miraculously well for the o levels.

i didnt.

in it lies a huge amount of regret. its the worst feeling in the world, and i dont want to ever feel it again.

thus, im happy that i've finally worked hard. hours of sitting down to study in the library, sometimes freezing there, some effort has paid off. thanks wing, reina and geri who studied with me during the june hols!